wandering around current events

Like most anyone right now, my mind wanders around all these current events. Politics. Covid19. MeToo. Black Lives. Racism. Weather. Climate change. Ghislaine Maxwell. The “Defund the Police” hullabaloo.

I watched about two hours of yesterday’s congressional hearing with Dr. Fauci, Dr. Robert Redfield, Adm. Brett Giroir. It’s stupefying that Republicans like Jim Jordan are smoke screening the effort with power house, machine gun style word storms of inducing panic. They want to insert themselves and their politics into justifying government violence against protesters. I understand they have a talking point that they want to guide a pointy finger away from gross negligence of states reopening too fast to BLM protestors. I don’t believe it’s Dr. Fauci’s responsibility to insert himself into that arena. But he handled Jordan’s word blitzkriegs with dignity and strength.

I get it. Millions of protestors are marching, most often with masks. And he had to point out that the protestors of any movement need to keep distance and wear masks. While so-called republicans were marching to re-open the economy whilst not masking is a flagrantly terrible tactic.

The story of Covid is a distinctly intriguing story. The more you look into it, the easier it is to become scared by the unknowns. If lifelong compromised organs are on the docket, I wish more people were doing their part to slow the spread.

Herman Cain. Man. What a sad story. The guy railed against wearing masks. Egregiously and ignorantly refused them. And he died because of it.

I was talking to some conservative friends and I barely reached the N sound in Cain before they interrupted, “Well, he also had cancer.” I didn’t want to jump off the phone and run do a fact check. But the man had cancer battled and beat colon cancer in 2006. It wasn’t part of his or his family’s concern regarding Covid.

They’re also quick to say, “Tina’s asymptomatic of Covid. She’s going to be fine. We’ll all be fine.” But we don’t know enough about the disease to “know” she’ll be anything.

And now Louie Gohmert has it. Will it take him? He’s 66. So maybe he’ll make it. But he was in a meeting the day before he was diagnosed, getting reprimanded by Gerald Nadler because he, Matt Gaetz and Jim Jordan refused to wear a mask when they weren’t talking during the hearing with Bill Barr.

Then there’s the story of Pastor Perry Cleek at a round table with President Trump who a day later tested positive for Covid. He was sitting directly next to Bill Barr and across from Trump. No masks.

My understanding of Defund the Police is likely very ignorant, but I am for the possibility that more can be done to help police in their ongoing battle to help keep the streets safe, people safe and the roads monitored. I think “Defund the Police” is a poor way of describing it, and perhaps the better way of looking at it is Expanding the Police with more of a wider arsenal to combat issues in states, counties and the nation.

Tina and I know some police personally and they seem to think it would be great to have a better staff of knowledgeable professionals. Police are already segregated into different groups (eg homicide detectives, uniformed officers, etc.) Maybe the police net needs to widen. So stop saying “Defund” and think Expand.

I will tell you what’s not working. What’s not working is poking at the Black Lives Matter movement like it’s a bee’s nest. What’s happening with the Law and Order option is exacerbating the issue. The powers on both sides need to sit down and listen to each other. Fighting is only causing more strife.

But isn’t that what President Putin wants us to do?

The race issue is fucked up. You have the republican wearing their badge of honor for being the Party of Lincoln, while they are fighting to preserve the very institutions that Lincoln and the country went to war for. Which is it? You want to be the Party of anti-racism or the party of egregious reveling in applauding the confederacy? Monuments are to be looked on with honor and adoration. They are large and reminders of the past that is so horrible to consider.

But I’m no fan of crucifixes and what they represent either. So I’m biased.

Oh my tittles tingle when I think of Ghislaine Maxwell spilling the beans on all these horrible monster men who associated with Epstein and her over the years. I want them ALL taken down. Bill Clinton to President Trump. Wipe ’em out. Go, thee, MeToo into battle with scorched earth and no bodies left un-harmed. That level of immorality needs a reckoning.

Thursday afternoon, I had a zoom meeting with my friend Ryan. He’s an artist doing graphics for Veterans at a top government level. We spoke in depth about our atheism and how we both feel we’re better “christians” now because being moral, good and just is more important knowing there are real consequences to one’s actions. But we use that moniker lightly, because we no longer believe that the reason for the season is Jesus. It’s humanity. And humanity should be who we honor as the savior. As humanity’s web of individuals creating the body of diversity is truth. And when we disparage a group, we amputate a necessary limb from our being.

That’s why globalization and neighborliness were the keystones to Jesus’ message. We need everyone to fight for everyone. It is the religious people’s right to tell people they are going to hell, that they shouldn’t have abortions, that they should worship god. But that doesn’t mean the non-religious need to agree. We should all agree to let everyone determine their own views. Abortion is troubling to me, because I do not advocate for it. But I advocate for one’s right to employ it in situations that need it. That includes poverty, health, and even birth control if need be.

Damn. I just wish we could all get along. Why do opinions on topics cause tension when they really don’t need to? I know I’m guilty of getting bent out of shape on topics that I disagree with. But why? So much of these things are way out of my control. They are built into a patchwork of ideas that are out of almost all of our collective reach. We can bitch and moan about many topics, but our voices are soft whimpers in the vacuum of ability to do a damn thing about it. So why fight?

Anyway, just wanted to jot some thoughts down about these events.

I often recognize my views as deluded and ignorant. I don’t claim to have all the knowledge and I’m fully aware that the very definition of “opinion” is: a view or judgment formed about something, not necessarily based on fact or knowledge.

I do however feel that opinions are best expressed long form and not embodied by a meme. But we live in a bumper sticker world. As if the smaller the expression the more profound.

I think back to when I let go of religion and faith. It was a long arduous process. It’s ongoing. The thing that helped me the most was vocalizing doubts. Writing them out. Once I really jumped into the actual expressions of my internal dilemmas, it created a level of discovery that led me out of faith.

But I was taught to hold doubts to a minimum. Use Jesus to crush those sinful thoughts. Once I stopped agreeing that the behaviors devoted to sins were, I could free myself from their shackles and open my mind to ideas that held much more weight and luster.

I have to broach one more topic and it was a discussion I had with a loved one about Trump. She had asked me, “Are you a fan of our president.” And I responded no. She clearly is. I thought about it long and hard and finally I asked her, “I’m curious. Tell me what you admire about the president. Her response:

1. He’s not a politician.
2. He says what he thinks 
3. I trust him

Unsolicited, she followed that with this line:

Obama to me was so fake!

She asked me why I didn’t admire Mr. Trump and I wrote out a thing about his comments on McCain, that he made fun of a disabled man and that he boasted about grabbing women by their pussies. That his wealth and power gave him that right.

Her response was, “Well all I can think of is Jesus saying he who is without sin  throw the first stone. He’s a man behaving like a man.”

I responded, “Well, I was taught not to behave that way.”

She wrote, “I’m relieved.” I think it was sarcastic.

But let me go back to her admirations for Trump: He’s not a politician. He’s not? He plays one on TV. His influence in politics has been a focus of his his entire career. Just because he wasn’t in an office, didn’t mean he wasn’t engaged in politics.

“He says what he thinks.” What a tired, boring statement. I say what I think too. And it gets me in trouble. And I pay the consequences. Trump says what he thinks and racists and ignorance is rewarded because he’s giving voice to those who feel stifled by the educated.

“I trust him.” How does one trust a man who rarely tells the truth? I don’t get it.

And finally, “Obama was so fake.”

Really? Really?

Trump wears self tanner. Eye makeup. His hair is nothing short of a horse mane of a toupee or plugs. And he devotes his time to endless tweet streams of madness. He uses violence to give himself a photo op holding up a book he’s never read.

Meanwhile Obama is fake. Trump is the poster child of anything but.

Okay. I get it.

I never idolized Mr. Obama. But I felt he did his best to fight for what he cared for, but he also failed miserably at times. I never wore an Obama hat. Or shirt. Or poster. Or paid homage to him with endless repetitions of his campaign slogans.

The chanters. The congregations. The mindless revel in their adoration for a man who boasts his delusions. He cheated on multiple wives. He paid off hookers. He has been accused over 20 times of sexual assault. I’m not throwing stones. I’m pointing out his flaws.

Who have people become that they are immune for scrutiny? How are we to improve if we do not learn by the flaws of others and are open to pointing them out?

And isn’t it ironic that throwing a stone to give up an unsolicited defamatory comment on the previous president? I didn’t ask her about him. Clearly she needed to get that off her chest.

So, yeah, I guess that’s the man for those people. He’s not for me. I was taught not to behave like him, and I wear that like a badge of honor.