There’s been something bothering me. Or maybe it’s some things.
Maybe it’s the Christmas season. Maybe it’s spending more time with friends and family.
Maybe it’s the idea that this economy is so tough, I have no idea if next week I’m going to have to find a job in the “real” world.
Last night I was listening to music that reminded me of an old girlfriend and I found myself a bit more emotional than usual. It wasn’t a longing for my ex-girlfriend. It was a return to emotions that I felt during our breakup.
But there are a zillion things are bringing the emotion right now. This blog for example.
I mean, Le Café represents ideologies that are completely contradictory to my upbringing. Some of the biggest readers of this blog are family, like my dad, my brother, my sister in law. I think my mom either reads it, or gets second hand info from my dad. But regardless, it’s understood that the universe-sized elephant in Chicago is the asshole who battles his former belief in Christianity via a public blog on the internet.
While I don’t sit here saying, “I’m going to hurt my family’s feelings today,” I can honestly say that my motivation is not to hurt them. I realize that it would be difficult to separate self from faith, as most people identify their person with faith.
My criticisms are surely offensive. (More below the fold).